Since our last post a lot has happened. I must say my head hasn't stopped spinning since this whole journey started. Our application was accepted at the end of January. We have already had our two in office meetings and have our home visit scheduled. As things stand we should be listed by the end of May. Who knew it would go that fast?!
We are doing a vendor fair to raise some money for our adoption so I have had to add that stress on top of the rest. But that is okay. It will all be worth it in the end.
I am starting to feel hope again. Hope that we will have a family of our own. I feel a sense of calm that I did not expect. The fear is gone, the constant doubt, the emptiness, it has all gone away. I can almost feel our child within reach. I dream of that child and wish the time for us to meet was already here.
I pray for the birthmom that picks us. I have not met her yet but I know she is an awesome person. She has to be to love her baby enough to do this. She will be my hero for ever and always. I pray that I am worthy of her sacrifice, that I live up to her expectations and that someday she will look upon me and feel no regrets in her decision.
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